Merry Christmas, bitches!

It's Christmas Eve!

Merry fucking Christmas everybody!

(and happy any other holidays you may celebrate.)

I love you!

Closer

Cheyenne, Wyoming.

Debate tournament.

We found a quiet corner in the school, behind a door where we tried not to be seen

and made out for about two hours while we waited for our next rounds to start.

In the hotel:

our rooms were right across from each other.

One night all the other people on our team went swimming

and we stayed in my room til curfew.

Yeah, that was a good night.

This boy keeps making me like him more and more.

Addicted

So much for going slow.

I can't believe how much I've started to fall for him.

it is ridiculous that only a few weeks ago I was trying so hard to make him be my friend,

and now...

we keep moving more each day.

______________________________________________________________________

A conversation from tonight:

him: You know, I think I love you.

her: No, you don't.

him: Well, if you say it, it must be true.

What am I doing?

I wish I could make up my mind.

I know for sure that I still have feelings for this guy,

but I also know for almost sure that he doesn't give two fucks about me anymore.

And now, the real problem.

This guy who I've known for two years, who likes me. I mean,

A LOT.

I told him today that I would date him, but just not get too serious.

Yesterday, I would have told him I just want to be friends.

Tomorrow it might be something completely different, but that doesn't matter because he already thinks we're going to.. or are.. dating.

I don't even know.

I just cannot make up my mind about this boy.

All I know is that I don't feel nearly as strongly about him as I did/do/i dont even know anymore about one of his closest friends,

who I met at a party that HE invited me to.

but that turned out to be a disappointment, and now this guy is coming after me,

like crazy,

and I don't even know whether or not I like him like that.

Sometimes I think no, but other times its yes.

But I know for sure that I absolutely LOVE him as a person and a friend.

What the fuck am I doing?

It's not okay

To be cruel.

To people, or animals or any other living thing you can think of.

Stop doing it, douche-bags.

Just fucking stop.

Go Go Go

JOSEPH!

ha. Just saw my school's production of the musical,

Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dreamcoat.

I am in a great mood now.

I just love musicals.

Like a million of my friends were in it, and they ALL did amazing. I absolutely loved it.

I've had a rough week, and I am SO glad I went and saw this.

It was a really great way to end the week and put a positive spin on everything.

I feel a lot better today about what has happened and I feel I'm ready to move on.

I'm letting myself be happy despite anything and everything.

I'm not going to worry about things like boys and relationships and worrying about my future.

I'm just going to let life happen and be happy with it.

Our world can only be at peace if we allow it to be.

You'd think that after so many times

I would learn my lesson.

I'm going to sleep,

I'm killing my alarm clock before it kills me.

Hit the floor, and I'll never wake again.

Girl meets Boy.

Imagine a party:

Girls and boys, just relaxing, talking, watching a movie, etc.

Boy sits on the floor.

Girl makes the decision to sit next to boy.

Girl and Boy hit it off instantly.

flash forward, almost a week later.

Boy and girl have been talking constantly everyday and they have total chemistry.

It is so obvious.

They both know it,

their friends know it,

it is known.

Girl realizes that not only do they have "chemistry", but she really, really likes boy.

A lot.

boy has amazing taste in music,

boy and girl can talk for ever and not run out of conversation.

Boy is not exactly "traditionally" cute,

but girl thinks he is TOTALLY adorable anyways

because of his amazing personality and epic coolness.

And the fact that boy plays bass doesn't hurt, either.

Girl reaally hopes this works out.

Because I really, really like him.

Fashion is Danger

Happy Halloween!

Well, day after Halloween.

This week could not have been more fabulous.

First of all, we only had two days of school. Monday and Tuesday (right after fall break!) and then Wednesday Thursday and Friday were snow days.

Then.

Friday night alex and I went to a Halloween party. And what happened? I met a sweet dude! yeah!

Then I spent ALL day Halloween talking to him over fb chat and texting.

I also went shopping that day and got a really awesome dress!

AND saw a CUTE guy dressed as Harry Potter at old navy!! WOW!

Finally, Halloween Night. Alex and Austin came over and we went out trick or treating and then came home and watched House on Haunted Hill. Alex was pretty freaked out. Funny shit.

Then we went upstairs, where my mother was having a party, and was a little tipsy.

She gave us hard apple cider.

And Alex got drunk.

Now THAT is entertainment.

Finally we went back down at like 1 and watched Meet The Parents and fell asleep.

Great night. Awesome way to end this week.

Bands who kick some

Yes, it's true.

I'm giving you some STUFF to listen to! Yeah!

http://www.myspace.com/bigrockcandymountain

http://www.myspace.com/miikesnow

http://www.myspace.com/freeenergymusic

http://www.myspace.com/ofmontreal

And now for some great bands from my home, Colorado.

http://www.myspace.com/youngcoyotes

http://www.myspace.com/savoyband

http://www.myspace.com/prettylights

You make everything groovy.

(Wild thang)

WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE

Tonight! Yes!

It's FINALLY fall break, and to celebrate I'm goin out tonight with my favorite chica, Alex!

We're seeing Where the Wild Things Are! I'm so excited!

Then tomorrow I am judging at a speech & debate tournament (sounds boring, I know, but trust me, it's soo much fun).

This week is going to kick major ass!

No homework, no getting up early, and no homework! Did I already say no homework? Well, let me say it again. NO FUCKING HOMEWORK!

YES!

Be excited!

I enjoyed breaking your heart

To start this one out, Ima post you a link to a fabulous song, that I think you should listen to while you read this. Even though it might distract you from what I'm saying.

It's a risk I'm willing to take.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OGnNlQ-KNv4

Bam. it's just. wow.

fab, yeah?

Okay. On with the blog.

So, it's been an... interesting few weeks since my last post.

Pretty rough, but I'm feeling much better.

(I haven't posted on it yet, because I feel it's... well, yeah, a little personal, but mostly just because I was pretty upset, and I didn't wanna start ranting.)

Let me give you an overview of what happened:

I went to a bonfire, hung out with a boy I liked there, ended up mackin' out with his friend, he (the guy I liked) got mad at me, I spent two weeks trying to get him back, he completely ignored me.

But,

Yesterday I figured out that he's not worth me suffering that much.

Yeah, I made a mistake, and regretted it, but the way he acted towards me afterward made me feel like shit,

and no guy is worth hating myself over.

Today is a great day, because I'm finally moving forward with my life.

And also, in other news, today was the first snow where I live!!

yay weather!

and yay happiness!

Warm feelings for a Cold Day

It's officially fall, everybody!

And what a perfect day of weather.

I LOVEE the cold/fall. There's something about curling up under a blanket with a cup of hot cocoa while it's snowing outside.

Today had that feeling, even though there was no curling up. But there was lots of coffee and hot cocoa in everyone's hands, and I even had some new mittens to complete the feel.

It was glorious.

Speaking of glorious,

Go listen to this song:

Quiet Little Voices by We Were Promised Jetpacks

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5ZhBAylbN4

It's really awesome. I have a thing for Scottish bands.

And the rest of this week is supposed to stay chilly, until Friday, when I don't have class! Yay! (My favorite chica and I are planning on painting outside that day.) Perfect!

Such a good day.

I never thought a Monday could be this nice.

I started it out with a cup of coffee, which probably helped, and from then on it was a just a great day! All of my classes went by pretty quickly and without pain, and by the end of the day I was running on two coffees, warm and fuzzies and just an overall great mood.

So to celebrate the good start to the week,

I'm wishing you all good, warm and fuzzy thoughts.

I love you!

How to Repulse Males and other humans

Do this shiz, and you are guaranteed to have everybody think you are disgusting, gross, etc.

1. Call yourself fat, ugly, etc. in front of guys.-- Really, it's not cool. Keep projecting that you think low of yourself, and soon everyone else will too.

2. Pick your nose. -- Um, do I really have to say this one? Apparently, I do, because today I saw somebody do this. WHY? that's so gross!

3. Get shitfaced all the time and brag about it. -- Okay, I know you think you're all cool cuz you party, and waste your life getting drunk so you can't even remember your weekends, blah blah, but you're not. Talking about how you threw up seven times in three hours? Does not make you sound fun to be around. In fact, it makes you sound boring, because if you can't have fun once in awhile without drugs/alcohol, you must really be lacking personality.

4. Obsess about your appearance. -- Okay, yes, it's good to want to look your best. But don't go overboard and spend every waking moment looking in the mirror and asking everybody "do I look okay?" blah blah "is my hair messed up?" blah blah. because all we hear is "am I pretty? tell me I'm pretty? Love me! Love me! why don't you love me?!"

5. Don't give a shit about your appearance. -- Don't become obsessed, but don't forget about it, either! Remember, other people see you! Just because you don't wanna look pretty for yourself doesn't mean you shouldn't look at least somewhat acceptable for the rest of us! (But it's important to look good for yourself, too. Trust me when I say, it feels GOOD to feel pretty!)

6. Be an attention whore. -- Just don't do it. Nobody likes somebody who acts out just because they want your UNDIVIDED attention ALL the time. It's annoying and makes you seem needy!

7. Talk shit about people when they're not around! -- It's mean and it weakens people's trust in you! If you can talk bad about someone else to them, they never know if you're doing the same thing to them with someone else!

8. Act like you're better than everyone else. -- Really, you're not. I promise. And when you act like you are, it irritates people. A lot. Because they know you're really just a self-righteous, condescending, bitchfaced arsehole.

9. Act like somebody you're not. -- Eventually, people will figure you out, and then they will have no interest in you, because a]. you lied, b]. you're desperate enough for people to like you to act how you think they want you to, and c]. nobody likes a fake bitch.

10. Be easy/a slut. -- Maybe guys will "like" you at first, because they get what they want, but after that, you're all used up and you're of no use to them or anyone else. If you want guys/people to truly like you, let them like YOU, and not just what you have to offer sexually.

Babies and Why They're Scary

Right now, there is a baby in my house.

My parents are babysitting a six-month old baby for my mom's friend, since it's her birthday, my mom thought she would take the baby off her hands so she could go have fun.

And not that he's not adorable and everything,

but babies just are not my thing.

And my mom is just in love with the thing.

She will not let me rest until I promise to give her grandkids.

And you know what? I don't know that I am prepared to promise ANYTHING.

I mean, It's not that I'm not open to the possibility of having kids.

Obviously, I still have a long way to go before my "motherhood thing" is supposed to kick in.

But, I mean, I don't know for sure that I want kids!

Kids are a whole new level of life, and having one completely puts you in a new world, and takes away your entire old life.

I know you can't be young forever, but I can at least try, right?

I don't want to have a second of weakness because of seeing some cute kid in the park, then decide to get pregnant, and end up losing my entire life as a non-mother!!

Like, whoah! Scary! Kids are a HUGE responsibility, we all know that, hopefully!

And I don't even really LIKE kids that much!!

And my mother is putting all this pressure on me to have some just because she is obsessed with little babies!

I mean, HI! I have a brother! He can find some nice lady and make some babies for you too!

Whatever, I guess I have a lot of time to contemplate the idea, because I mean, I'm still in high school. No babies for me any time soon.

Maybe someday I'll find someone I really love, who I want to spend the rest of my life with, and who will love me so much, and I will love him so much, that it makes me want to have a child with him.

But until then,

Thank god for Birth Control.

Dance All Night

MONOLITH.

WAS.

AMAZING.

'nuff said.

Okay, so here's the low down.

Alex and I were like, one of the first people to get there, and we immediately had an awesome time, chatted it up with Mike and "Sydney" while we waited for it to open.

Then, we watched Spindrift, and then went upstairs and watched The Grates (AMAZING! So much energy!) and then afterward got a picture and had a nice little chat with the lead singer, who was a TOTAL sweetie. She was awesome. If you haven't heard of them, check them out, fo sho. They're great. (ha!)

Then came the Monotonix who were really not very good.. the lead singer guy stuck his ass in my face.. gross.

But THEN

THE THERMALS!! They played an AMAZING live show, and then afterwards I got a picture with the drummer, who was a HOTTIE fo sho.

After them, because MSTRKRFT was sick, (which turned out to be a blessing!) was Savoy, an amazing electronic band from BOULDER. (represent.) DEFINITELY look these guys up, especially for any occasion that you wanna DANCE. Their music is so amazing, and infectious, it will FORCE you to get up and move!

And I did.

A LOT.

And so did a certain (male) individual behind me.

Savoy's site: http://myspace.com/savoyband

CHECK out the video on their page. It's only 6 seconds, but I'm flippin IN it! YEAH! I'm that beast in the white shirt (with the sling) and the sick glasses, dancin like a total goober.

Then was PassionPit. THEY are sooo amazing I don't think there is a way their show could have been bad. They had a really great performance, and it was amazing to watch, even though I kept getting thrashed by all the crazy people trying to get to the front.

But the "certain individual" and I ended up dancin together the whole show. it was super fun.

FINAL SHOW:

Phoenix!

They were awesome, even though they were on the main stage, instead of on the awesome intimate one where you could pretty much reach up and touch them if you wanted. but it was cool anyways. (I was still dancing with a "certain individual")

GREAT NIGHT.

I am SO going next year.

School Spirit?

So

last night I got "wrangled" into going to our school football game, with Alex.

It was pretty fun. Of course, that's not because of the actual football. I'm pretty sure I might

have looked at the field... like twice the whole time.

But hey, I cheered a few times, too okay? And it was a blackout so I WORE black, okay? I'm not completely void of school spirit. I just don't happen to give a damn about football.

Speaking of school spirit though, I am SO excited about my theater three class doing a tableau at our school's homecoming pep rally. (With the ensemble kids! YES!)

last year the theme was welcome to the jungle, and they all dressed up in these crazy animal or forest/cave-people-whatever things. it was really cool.

THIS year,

it's Mardi Gras.

HELL to the YEAH.

So anyways, back to last night.

Spencer, My best friend's newest boyyyy is ADORABLE. they are SO cute together, it's just

ridiculous.

So I'll tell you a short story.

At the end of the night, when Spencer and his friends were leaving, they had to jaywalk across a busy trafficky street to get to his parent's car.

So right as he was almost to the car, he RAN back to Alex, just to make sure he kissed her goodnight.

And then ran back across the street.

HOW cute is that!?

I'll tell you, it's very cute.

anywayy it was a fun night. Lots of ridiculousness and picture taking. :)

The Party: part two

I broke my fucking collarbone.

we were playing crack the whip, and i flew off and landed on my shoulder.

I missed the rest of my party because i was in the emergency room. greaat night.

The Party: Part one

The day of:

OH it's going to be extravagant.

Right now I am listening to the most amazing dance music you can imagine.

And in an hour and fifteen minutes I'll be setting up for a party as fun as you please.

What party?

The ugly dress party, of course.

Because we can't be fashionable Alll the time. It's the one night of the year, when it is ever so fashionable, to be ever so unfashionable.

Don't pretend like you don't think it's a great idea.

So I am soooo excited, because it's going to be a blast.

People, music, food, ugly clothing, ultimate frisbee, and dancing. what could be better?

I'm going to get SOO many amazing night shots. They'll be up as soon as I can manage.

So goodnight, I love you, and I'll soon show have a new post about the ugliest dresses, and why you shouldn't wear them.

PS:

music you should listen to:

Make Light by Passion Pit

Liztomania by Phoenix

Drugs In My Body by Thieves Like Us

Animal by Miike Snow

Vermillion Plaza by Deastro

Swing Tree by Discovery

On Mormon boys:

Alright, so we all know that religion often affects a person's:

personality,

general demeanor

(attractiveness?).

Well, most of the time. Kind of.

So maybe it's not actually based on any facts, research or data of any kind, but I mean, have you ever noticed a correlation?

I personally am not religious, and find religions strange, unnecessary, and sometimes just plain. fucked. up.

However, I've noticed something weird..

The mormon boys?

For some reason, they seem to be damn adorable!

Both my friend, Alex and I have found a boy who we TOTALLY like.

Like, I mean,

LIKE LIKE LIKE.

Both are the sweetest kids ever, really funny, REAALLY cute,

and just completely amazing people that share our interests (but very few of the same views),

and.

are.

MORMON.

Whoah, right?

what is with these mormon boys?

They are wayy too cute!

Okay, okay, so maybe it's just a coincidence. But I mean, what are the chances that all of the mormon boys I know (okay, not all.. But a lot, okay!) are SUPER sweet and nice and cute.

And when I say sweet, I mean you just can't help but like them.

Even if you don't like them like a boyfriend or whatever, you just can't hate these kids.

I mean, these guys are just too adorably nice to you that you just have to be nice to them back.

And if you don't, you're a horrible person. Because why should you be mean to, or dislike someone who does nothing but say nice things to you? You shouldn't!

Which is how I've managed to fall for the sweetest boy I've ever met.

He's in speech and debate with me, and is in the musical. He's cute, funny, and once again, sweet as sugar.

And he's mormon.

For those of us who still spend unfortunate days in a school

Photo by Alicia Lawson. You should totally check her out, since her stuff is amazing, and you can do so at http://abandoned-echoes.deviantart.com/

Back to school:

We know,

it sucks.

Today was the second day of school this year,

and I'm flat out exhausted.

My mind is tired

and so is my body.

Spending 7 hours in school is nothing. I've been doing that for years now.

It's the walking 1.7 miles home with a fifteen pound (or more) bag on my shoulder that really gets me.

I usually only walk home only about .9 or so miles, but because of budget cuts in our county (thank you very much, to all of you stupid people who voted against 3A and 3B. I get it. You don't want to pay more taxes. You don't give a shit about education or what this means for little kids, you're just trying to evade paying more money than you already do for your ritzy little house in the suburbs and fast little cute sportscar.) I now have no bus.

But hey, at least my bag will be a little lighter by the end of next week, I just have to carry everything I need for school in my bag right now, even when I don't need to take it home, because we haven't been assigned lockers yet.

I really really really hope my locker is in a good location this year.

I also hope it actually locks, unlike my locker last year.

Let me tell you, it was certainly interesting to go to my locker between classes to drop off a binder or something and find some random child I didn't know either putting their shit in my locker (when there's already limited room because I share with three or so other people [my locker partner invites her friends into our locker]) or just looking through all the crap in there, possibly for something they put in there earlier, or maybe because they are just bored and want something to do, like sift through other people's things.

who knows.

Anywho,
this year should be pretty cool other than my walking home situation.

Also because of budget cuts, we have shorter classtimes this year. which in the long run is bad because we have less time to cover material, but good in the short run, cuz I mean, it's way cooler to spend 45 minutes in class than 55 minutes in class.

Aaaannnnddddd, we have an open campus this year. Which means:

LONGER LUNCH! Yes! because they need to give time to people who leave for lunch to go someplace, eat lunch and come back. I don't have my license yet, so I can't go anywhere (there' nowhere close enough to our school to walk) but it's still nice to have a long lunch. And plus it will be nice when my junior/senior friends (or friends in my grade who can drive) are nice and drive me somewhere.

ha.

And also, I just have really good classes this year.

Theater 3, Hell yeah!

and Speech and Debate

and REGULAR english instead of honors this year. I took honors last year, so this year will be like a break. Sweet.

I'm also taking AP Euro, which, though it will be hard because of the material, will actually not be too too difficult because Mr. Patrick is cool (despite what I've heard from my friends who had him last year. That's just because he doesn't like freshmens or something.).

and so we actually take two weeks to cover a chapter.

Which is longer than I took to read a chapter of the textbook for the class as summer homework.

Sa-weeeet!!!

Exciting stuff man.

I have a feeling it's gonna be a good year.

I dream of Jello

Yeah, I'm pretty sure it's like a miracle or something.

[jello].

So, I woke up this morning with a massive headache, extremely sore jaws, and very little will to get out of bed.

And so I didn't for another hour.

And when I did, the first thing I did was eat a bowl of lime jello, because that's basically the only thing I can get to slide down my throat lately.

After taking some advil (I'm trying to get off the pain pills) I put a warm compress on my face for twenty minutes..

then proceeded to fall asleep again.

I seriously did not even see the sleep coming. It's like one minute I would be awake,

and the next thing I knew I'd be waking up.

I feel like I have narcolepsy or some shit.

The weird thing is, I may have been hallucinating in-between snoozes..

I swear I saw a spider on the wall before I last fell asleep, but when I woke up it was gone.

No trace of it.

It was one of those really little ones...

I have no idea, maybe it wasn't a hallucination.. it could have crawled away, I guess.

Logically, they don't dissappear, right?

Shit, and I didn't even take a pain pill today!

Well, I'm awake now, and though it may be temporary, I feel well enough to go shower and attempt to walk my dogs.

this should be fun.

[perhaps].

Dazed And Confused

Okay, I watched that movie last night,

and I'm a little baffled that Alex said it was like the best movie ever.

No offense, but not the greatest movie I've ever seen. It was possibly one of the least entertaining.

But, I also watched pineapple express, and it was hilarious.

I laughed my ass off.

So today, I'm going to be drugged out of my mind on pain killers!

Because I'm getting my wisdom's out.

So it should be a very interesting experience (though I'm dreading the part where they have to stick the IV in my arm.. I don't do well with needles).

I'm quite interested in having people text me and see if I make any sense.. because my friend trever (boyfriend at the time, not anymore), when he had his teeth out, he was on some high dosage of viacadin (I know that's wrong. I can't spell it.) or something and he was texting me and it was HI freakin' LARIOUS to talk to him.

He was a silly silly person on painkillers. He was soooo out of it.

ha.

Other than chatting, all I'll be doing today is eating jello and smoothies and watching movies and sleeping.

It should be good fun.

[not really].

The Waiting Game

So, It's a dreary old Tuesday,

And I'm just avoiding my homework.

I have sooo much coming up, FAST.

And frankly, I'm scared shitless.

But I'm trying to balance out the fear with some excitement, at least.

So I have some things to freak out about in the future, and some things to look forward to.

Things I'm dreading:

1. Getting my wisdom teeth out (This coming Thursday)

2. School Starting (August 11th)

3. Starting on Birth Control... I mean it will be good in the long run, but my friend who was on it in 8th grade said she got her period for like 28 consecutive days when she first started. SCARY.

Now, Things I can look Forward to:

1. Ugly Dress Party!! (But we still need to decide a date)

2. Denver Freeze! (Maybe, I don't know for sure if I can go yet.. shit that's next week! better find out..)

3. Going back to school (yeah, it's stressful, but I do look forward to speech starting again, and seeing everybody.)

4. Going on Birth Control (yeah I know it's the thing scaring me, but I mean once I'm on it, it should clear up my skin, which is the whole reason I'm starting it.. because I'm not worried about the pregnant thing, I don't have sex.)

But as much as I do look forward to these things, they are stressing me out. I mean, it's hard planning parties, and doing homework when school starts in two weeks!

And right now I'm procrastinating even more, which is making it worse!

So, yeah, it's my fault.

But still!

Can't you see what the stress is doing to me! I'm becoming paradoxical! First I say something is scary, and then I say the same thing is what I'm looking forward to! What's wrong with me?

I am such a mess.

I can't believe I'm wasting my time like this.

I should really get back on track.

The Spirit of Aloha

So yesterday, I went to the dragonboat festival.

It was pretty fun..

kind of.

Well it pretty much sucked for the first half hour that I was there, cuz it was raining, and I was watching these crappy dances by philippino-amercians.

Nothing against them personally, they just did very un-entertaining dances.

But soon the rain cleared up and the better dancers went on,

they were Polynesian-Americans, I guess.

Anyways, they had much cooler dancing.

ha.

I guess there were also some dragonboat races going on, though we didn't really watch them.

but I did get a couple of pictures of them.

The lake was reallyy pretty.

Edgewater, for all you Coloradoans who know their stuff. (or don't?)

After it was over, we walked up to some Thai restaurant and ate dinner there.

Thank god I had some fried rice at the festival, or I would have gone hungry.

I ordered Drunken noodles with tofu.

it was disgusting. and it wasn't even the tofu I had a huge problem with (although I did have to force myself to swallow, though it doesn't taste bad, the texture reminds me of.. I don't know, vomit or something), it was the flavor of the entire dish. It tasted like

Crap.

But anyways, fun night. The people who were introducing all the dance acts on stage were pretty hopelessly un-funny, but they thought they were pretty cool.

it was kind of entertaining.

They kept talking about the "spirit of aloha". I guess you have to be from the pacific islands

or asian or something to get that.

whatevs.

ha. it was a good time anyways.

Single: From Failure to Freedom.

Photo by: http://srulia-nialo.deviantart.com/

Currently:

I am listening to the playlist of the mixed tape I made for my best friend who currently is in Michigan (I mailed it to her, because I'm that cool.)

It is a masterpiece if I do say so myself. Hopefully she will agree (to some degree).

Anywho,

today was fairly boring, I spent most of it doing my summer homework, but then I went on a bike ride to the park (the one nobody knows about, so I'm totally not naming it. It's MINE.) then to starbucks to get a green tea (unsweetened).

So you're probably wondering, "why the hell is she writing a blog about that shit? so boring."

Well, my dears, I am blogging because while I was out today, I experienced some serious revelations. So Alex (aforementioned best friend) is in cute boy heaven in Traverse City, MI and I'm stuck, boyless, in Highlands freakin Ranch. Lovely. Oh yeah, and to top it off count chuckle emailed her again, inviting her to the lake next saturday. Really Creepy actually, so that's not the part I'm really concerned about but I just kind of find it funny in a weird way so I wanted to write that in here. yeah.

Anyways that's not the point.

As I was wallowing in my loneliness and overwhelming jealousy of Alex I feel right now (the lucky hoe), I realized that I could probably easily have a guy right now. I know of a couple that are decent that wouldn't be too difficult to obtain.

So why don't I have them?

Because I haven't gotten off my lazy ass to pursue them! Of course they're not going to come to me, we haven't interacted since school! And it's not like they are just going to suddenly appear at some public place at the same time as I happen to be there, and strike up a conversation with me like "hey, let's hook up".

If I want action, I'm going to have to create it. I can't just sit here waiting for a guy to appear in my life and want me, I am actually going to have to go after someone! And it's not like it HAS to be somebody I already know, I can go talk to that quiet cutie in the music section of Borders, or strike up a conversation with the next cute clerk at the counter of whatever store I happen to shop at.

Okay, so I'm just stating the obvious here. So what? Just because the rest of the world has probably realized it, I obviously just now came to terms with it. Okay, so I knew this before. But it never really struck me as something that made a difference. But seriously, it truly does!

And it's not like the rest of you people are trying it out!

Maybe some of you, but I mean when you think about how many unhappily-single people there are in this world, they probably aren't doing much about it, or else things would totally change for them! Maybe not everybody has luck with love, so not EVERYBODY would get results,

but at least half of the unhappily-single population of the world could start doing something about it, and actually stop being single and mopey, and start being nailed and happy!

And that's guys too, not just girls.

Guys, let me tell you, if you have at least some appeal lookswise or personality-wise,

and just started flirting with some random strange girl, they would TOTALLY dig it. seriously.

Stop being shy and GO GET 'EM!

Harry Potter, this one's for you.

So, just got back from Kansas yesterday.

And I'm not even going to discuss it any further because it's very uninteresting.

So.

TONIGHT: Harry Potter And The Half Blood Prince.

At midnight. YES. I'm soo excited.

Yes, ladies and gents, I am a total harry potter nerd.

The little nerd inside of me (actually it's not that little) is grabbing her HP garb and jumping up and down with excitement.

But I actually don't own any HP garb so unfortunately I won't be dressing up to view this lovely film. (Other than glasses and a scarf, but the scarf isn't even similar. Oh well it's pretty much law that you have to wear at least some sort of scarf when going to see a harry potter movie.)

Anywayss, I am totally getting psyched for tonight, not only by getting as much costume as I can (I am not above drawing a lightning bolt on my forehead) but also by watching disney channel, for you see, Wizards of Waverly Place is going to get me warmed up.

I'M A NERD.

and you love it.

Exhausted, Excited and Freaking Out

photo: http://whiterose243.deviantart.com

As we all know, Last Weekend was our Independance Day.

I spent all day inside making my TODDLER-PANTIE-PURSE. Don't judge.

Then, our cul-de-sac had our 4th of July BBQ that ended up being in the Levy's garage because of the rain. Lovely. But luckily, the rain cleared in time for us to light all of our lovely fireworks.

Also luckily, Dioni's (yeah, I have NO idea how to spell her name) sister from South Africa, along with her two kids, were there with us. Don't ask me to remember the chick's name, because there was no reason for me to know it. HOWEVER, Dioni's nephew, FRANCOIS (yeah, his name is French.), was adorable. And 17. And adorable. And funny. And adorable. We hung out and talked the entire time. It was pretty chill. Unfortunately he's going back to South Africa now. Oh well.

So anyways, back to the present:

Today was aaaahhhmazin'. Alex and I went to the mall, and I got glasses and eyeliner. Yes.

AANND we went to Macy's and tried on a million UGLY ASS DRESSES. yes. UGLY. ASS. DRESSES.

and we have decided to have an Ugly Dress Party. MMyes. Yes,mm.

So when we got home from the park (we went on a run after our shopping adventure) we immediately got on facebook and formed our ugly dress party group, and sent out many many invitess.

Another thing I did on the computer tonight, (which I am exxtreemely excited about) is restore my iTunes. FINALLY. I got allll of my songs back (before, after my computer crashed, I only got all my purchased music back, and then I re-burned a few of my favorite CD's on there. But that was only a little more than half.) Yes, it's true ladies and gentlemen, Emily Elizabeth Pohlenz FINALLY has all 1,235 songs on her iTunes. YESS.

So now I'll have my entire gorgeous soundtrack to listen to in Kansas, for which I leave for This Saturday (I'm visitin' my Gran'parents. Yes. Gran'. Parents.). I really hope that the Town of Argonia, Kansas has gained a population of at least a few (CUTE) boys ages 15 to 17.

Other than boy-scoutin' (ha!), All I'll really be doing in the lovely state of Kansas will be my AP European History Summer Homework Assignment. Yay.

That one is definitely gonna take up the rest of my summer.

So here's the dillyo.

I have to read this ginormous (pretty boring) book (A History of the Wife, if you must know) and answer 10 (fairly long) questions (in detail. oh yes.) FOR EACH CHAPTER.

No, boys and girls, not 10 questions about the book.

10 questions for each of the 10 (50 page!) chapters of this lovely lovely book.

And then I have to "record relevant information about" a bunch of dead chicks from the book.

Great.

So I'm thinking this week will be my last social week of the summer.

Other than the Denver Freeze (hellyesssss) on August 8th

and our Ugly Dress Party (date yet to be set)

I don't think I'll be doing much else.

Count Chuckle Lake

Camping

at Big Soda Lake last weekend,

WAS FREAKIN FUN.

Alex invited me to go with her camping, with her mom, little little sister, little sister, and little sister's friend.

At first, the plan was to go to THE GREAT SAND DUNES. helltotheyeah.

only, it didn't helltothehappen.

Her mom, being a doctor, was on call to deliver a baby. so we had to go somewhere close.

Fortunately, close didn't mean lame like we first thought it would.

The beach:

well, it wasn't a beach. it was some skanky sand next to some skanky lake water surrounded by skanky people, and we were pretty sure it was infested with skanky sewage runnoff from the nearby outhouse.

BigSodaLake so far

was BigNasty"Lake"

BUT THEN

Sammy and Shayna left!

to where!

We didn't know!

but we soon found out, as they came back to give Alex's madre some consent forms for PaddleBoating.

And so we discovered the other side of Big Soda Lake.

This side had rentals: Kayaks, Canoes, Paddleboats, Windsurfing

This side had clean water

This side wasn't crawling with toddlers and their skanky teenage mothers and fatass grandparents.

It was gohhhjuss.

So, we rented a kayak.

And it was pretty decent. We got some cool pictures of us kayaking, like a boss.

fo rizzle.

Then

I had the GENIUS idea of jumping OUT of the kayak.

Hold your applause, please. I know I'm a freakin genius.

so we got some AHA-mazing pictures of us in the water.

Then when we went back to shore, we spent like 6 hours jumping off the docks. fun fun stuff.

Then we went to the campsite and ate dinner.

Then we went back to the lake for a couple more hours.

Then we went back to the campsite for the night and roasted sweet sweet marshmallows

and one apple.

The next day we returned again to the lake,

where we took pictures again off the dock,

and took pictures of a group of presumably drunk about twenty-year-old sailboaters.

Who thought they were pirates.

ARR.

they wanted us to send them the pictures, so we did.

Email: Countchuckle@yahoo.com

They then proceeded to invite us this weekend to a BBQ with them for Fourth of July:

"YARRRRGH back. THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR SENDING THOSE! we all got a laugh out of them & they came out great, good memory with my e-mail also. We will be there all day on the 4th of July if you want a free lunch on us. thanks again lol - Trevor"

So I guess one of their names was trevor. And I guess they don't realize that we are probably about 5 years younger than them.

But hey, they saw us from far away, and I mean, we DO tend to look a bit older in swimsuits, afterall.