The Waiting Game

So, It's a dreary old Tuesday,

And I'm just avoiding my homework.

I have sooo much coming up, FAST.

And frankly, I'm scared shitless.

But I'm trying to balance out the fear with some excitement, at least.

So I have some things to freak out about in the future, and some things to look forward to.

Things I'm dreading:

1. Getting my wisdom teeth out (This coming Thursday)

2. School Starting (August 11th)

3. Starting on Birth Control... I mean it will be good in the long run, but my friend who was on it in 8th grade said she got her period for like 28 consecutive days when she first started. SCARY.

Now, Things I can look Forward to:

1. Ugly Dress Party!! (But we still need to decide a date)

2. Denver Freeze! (Maybe, I don't know for sure if I can go yet.. shit that's next week! better find out..)

3. Going back to school (yeah, it's stressful, but I do look forward to speech starting again, and seeing everybody.)

4. Going on Birth Control (yeah I know it's the thing scaring me, but I mean once I'm on it, it should clear up my skin, which is the whole reason I'm starting it.. because I'm not worried about the pregnant thing, I don't have sex.)

But as much as I do look forward to these things, they are stressing me out. I mean, it's hard planning parties, and doing homework when school starts in two weeks!

And right now I'm procrastinating even more, which is making it worse!

So, yeah, it's my fault.

But still!

Can't you see what the stress is doing to me! I'm becoming paradoxical! First I say something is scary, and then I say the same thing is what I'm looking forward to! What's wrong with me?

I am such a mess.

I can't believe I'm wasting my time like this.

I should really get back on track.