Babies and Why They're Scary

Right now, there is a baby in my house.

My parents are babysitting a six-month old baby for my mom's friend, since it's her birthday, my mom thought she would take the baby off her hands so she could go have fun.

And not that he's not adorable and everything,

but babies just are not my thing.

And my mom is just in love with the thing.

She will not let me rest until I promise to give her grandkids.

And you know what? I don't know that I am prepared to promise ANYTHING.

I mean, It's not that I'm not open to the possibility of having kids.

Obviously, I still have a long way to go before my "motherhood thing" is supposed to kick in.

But, I mean, I don't know for sure that I want kids!

Kids are a whole new level of life, and having one completely puts you in a new world, and takes away your entire old life.

I know you can't be young forever, but I can at least try, right?

I don't want to have a second of weakness because of seeing some cute kid in the park, then decide to get pregnant, and end up losing my entire life as a non-mother!!

Like, whoah! Scary! Kids are a HUGE responsibility, we all know that, hopefully!

And I don't even really LIKE kids that much!!

And my mother is putting all this pressure on me to have some just because she is obsessed with little babies!

I mean, HI! I have a brother! He can find some nice lady and make some babies for you too!

Whatever, I guess I have a lot of time to contemplate the idea, because I mean, I'm still in high school. No babies for me any time soon.

Maybe someday I'll find someone I really love, who I want to spend the rest of my life with, and who will love me so much, and I will love him so much, that it makes me want to have a child with him.

But until then,

Thank god for Birth Control.